Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Thesaurus Rape. A Public Awareness Announcment.

The young boy's lips parted softly as he exuded a sweet waft of life's breath into the surrounding atmosphere. The troposphere was clement, and droplets of saline sudor were forming on his alabaster brow. The man who was roosted abreast of him passed a hand gloved in obsidian leather across his own brow, and sussurated in exhaustion.

This. Is a sufferer of Thesaurus Rape. Dear readers, we have here a paragraph from a piece of fan-fiction regarding Final Fantasy 13. Now normally, considering it's a piece of Fan-Fic, I wouldn't even give it a second thought.

But it struck a chord. That could have been me, had I not been given the proper medical and educational help against this horrible affliction.

Let me start with a definition. Thesaurus Rape: Is the terrible affliction, where a writer, has a perfectly adequate paragraph/sentence. And then decides to swap every second word for a more...'appropriate' word..

Whilst I am tired. I'll post the rest of my rant tomorrow. Heh, Sorry guys... sleep beckons.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Rum and 'Lavie'

Today's not going well. I woke up, and recent news re-told itself to my brain. And I shut the curtains, grabbed a shot glass and a put on Oren Lavie and pushed myself back into sleep. Where everything is just that much simpler.

I've been having a lot of dreams lately. All about dating people and being in relationships. I recently got out of one, and boy am I glad I did. I just don't think I was ready.

OR. At least thats what I thought to begin with. Turns out my subconscious thinks differently. Most of them are about people I know. One has been a complete random whom I have no recollection of. I sort of like to think that perhaps those dreams, with someone significant that you have never met, is a sort of fore-shadowing. Of something or someone you'll meet or see.

I guess it's just wishful thinking. Dreams just aren't like that. Most of the time atleast.

So, I'm in bed, eating chocolate that I found in my stash drawer. I keep forgetting the multitude of crap, food and other stuff, that I've put in there as a precaution to this kinds of days. Although this day, has hit harder than I thought it would. I guess it's the same for everyone.

...Just say when..

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Effectively Raped by a Behemoth.

It's not okay to heave me into the air with a giant axe-blade mister Behemoth, no it is not. *sigh* - ragequit.

Anyway, on to more productive endeavors. Like blogging...Chyeah, like thats productive and all.

I suppose this can be a quick update of goings ons. So the job interview was unsuccesfful. The reply was something along the line sof, "Sorry we're looking for someone more experienced." I suppose I shouldn't be surprised, I mean I'm fresh out of highschool, with little more than a HSC under my belt, and it's a pretty high end, quality place. So I can understand.

That doesn't mean I'm not upset about it. For some reason I had thought I'd get lucky. Anyway. I can't do anything about it now.

I've been doing some Game Plot Writing with a mate of mine. Goes by the name of Fair Lady Charlotte...actually...It's just Charlotte, or Char really. Known her since my 7 Year old days. We've worked out a pretty awesome game so far. And hopefully with all the stuff worked out by, optimistically the end of this year, we'll send her off to a developing company and see how we go.

I'll post some snippets of plot, gameplay elements and character design I think. Get some feedback from my non-existant readership. *Sigh*

Anyway that's all for now, So Ill post again soon.


Thursday, March 11, 2010

My Hands: Them's broken!

Well they aren't...I just heard a song, called My Hands be Leona Lewis. Reason I heard it? It's apparently the theme for the english version of FF13. Haven't heard it in-game yet. But I probably will eventually. I'm almost at the end of the 2nd Disc. Which is depressing and exciting. I just don't want to finish. Although, with this boss battle. *Balthanders* I'm probably NOT going to be finished anytime soon.

Anyway, the point of this post today is to highlight, both Youtube/Forum Trolls and Fanboys.

I'll address the Trolls to begin with. I was looking for the song for fun. And I was listening to it. I found it nice, I'd have to hear it in the game to make a judgement on whether it suits or not.

What grated against me, incredibly so, was this commentor. I won't mention names, but he seemed to hate the song, and therefore HATE the game. I mean, I've seen douchey people on the net before and I don't really think much of it. But this struck me as odd, so among his comments, were calling the series of FF, a Sinking Ship. And that the vacating of Nobuo Uematsu killed the series. I get the idea of a composer, creating the music for series throughout its evolution leaving is a big deal.

But does that mean the game/series will surely die out because of it? I don't think so. I mean, what if the man had passed away? They will always have to change composers, whether or not someone leaves, or passses away. You can't expect something to stay the same forever. Especially in the gaming world.

Second, the guy on youtube, hasn't touched the new game. Instead, personally boycotting it because it lacks, the classic themes of N.U, and a huge free-sandbox type world.

I admit, I was a bit wary of a supposedly linear game. After playing it for over 20 hours, I can attest personally to the immersive story that pushes you along at such speed that you don't even realise/notice the linear nature of the game. And by the time your 25-30 hours in, you're released into a world grander and more open than anything I've ever seen.

Reviews for the game have been 8/10 or higher from almost every source I've seen.

He then compares the new game, to FFX-2, calling it girly and immature. I mean...what the HELL! He stated he hadn't played the game, then compares it to something? Isn't that a bit...I dunno...stupid? This guy needs a collective facepalm from the entire FF community.

For the record, I've never played a game, with such an in-depth, addictive, mature storyline. FFX-2-like? That's like comparing a 3-year olds painting with a Monet.... Honestly... Some people really tick me off...

I just wish people would give things a go before making an assessment. It's like guessing at an answer to a math problem without any basis for your answer.


Anyway, my little angry vent is over for now.

Job Interview Success.

Well it wasnt a success, but it wasn't a failure. Heh, it went well is what I'm trying to say here. I enjoyed it tons, which is an odd admission. But anyway, they were very nice. A dark guy, about 5ft7. and a shorter, dark haired girl, pale skin. Both very attractive. They were friendly and all that. I was, of course, nervous as all heck.

So every second word out of my mouth was usually some sort of weird hybrid of two words because brain functionality was just not working. Anyway, eventually I relaxed, as does happen when people around you are relaxed. By the end of it all, they both said I did good.

Apparently, I said something good too, they asked me something like, "Why should we hire you?" I blanked and in the split second of silence I blurted out, "Because you need me." And that, worked rather well...apparently. But yeah, so their end comments.

Girl: "You relaxed alot by the end of it all, and to be honest, I like you."
Guy: "Yeah, you're very unique."

So good?


FF13 is causing me to cry a lot. *shameful face* I keep dying in the boss fights...friggin butt surf. I'm still loving it...but c'mon....fighting an Airship? What did they think would happen?!

Sigh....Anyway. I'm off to try it again.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010



That's how i'm feeling..Good, now that you're all caught up with news...

I've gotten a job interview for tomorrow. I hate interviews, they make me all nervous and stuff. I'm notoriously bad for getting sweaty skin for no reason. Usually in someplace unnoticable. My hands are probably the worst out of all them.

Anyway, so it's a job, and I'd love to get it. I'd love to have money. It sure would be nice. Plus my last job, at KFC, was a freakin hellhole. The pay, the work, the people. Minus a select few that is. But yeah, I just didnt like it.

Then I was un-employed for the rest of my school life, which was a further two years really. *Sigh* Anyway, now I sort of need money... Especially if I start Uni in Melbourne next year. It would be awesome to have some money to support myself. Plus I have many friends there. And I love visiting them, but for that, guess what I need? That's right money.

Anywho. I'll get there eventually. My writing is still on hold right now. I just can't get ze urges. Which sucks. The Writers Block ghost is a pain in the ass. I suppose. I am technically writing right now. But it's not exactly helping my block.

And that's it for now. So wish me luck for tomorrow, I'll probably write another blog tomorrow. For update purposes.

Later Alligator.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Final Fantasy-Gasm.

Today... The greatest series known to man-kind *In my Opinion* has released their newest familial addition in English, FF13. Today, I bought it. And today. I game-gasmed.

I heard all the reviews possible by australian sources. I was disappointed. None seemed to be able to grasp the game as an entire project. The visuals...Magnificent, the music...Superb. The story...captivating...So yes. I'm a fan-boy. And I understand people have different opinions so I'm not going to focus on those reviews right now.

For me, I've always loved FF. Every new addition I've played and loved. Some people have particular favourites but my tastes as rather flexible and I don't mind changes to system. So the battle/linearity/style of gameplay is all rather different and exciting and new.

The biggest gripe I have, and quite possibly the ONLY gripe I have, is the simple fact that when your Party Leader falls in battle, it's game over. Adding a stressfully difficult component of gameplay.

I've only been playing for roughly 2 hours so far, and I've died once. After that fail, I turned off and made a cup of tea. To calm myself and consult my brain as to how to NOT let that happen again. It wasn't frustration. I was just quizzical.

Plus I've always rushed through games, not really savouring the feel and atmosphere portrayed although, and may I warn you... SPOILERS Ahoy.


The moment that Hope's mother dies, actually made me sad, like sad enough to ALMOST cry. Not cry, but almost. It was rather touching.


But anyway, one last thing I would like to comment on is the voice-acting/english dubbing. I've read a lot, and I mean a lot. Of complaints about english dubbing in almost any game I've played/read about.

I for one, thought it was very enjoyable. I've no problems with the voices, they aren't at all overtly whiny/high-pitched, or atypical for archetype characters. I:E The strong masculine dude with the deep voice, or the angst ridden main character with a voice stuck on melancholic.

Over-all. This game deserves, (so far) a 9 Gysahl Green rating out of ten.. (9 Stars out of ten - for all you non FF-ers.)

Coincedently...why is it we rate things out of stars? What exactly does that have to do with how good something is...I might ponder that for later on.



My Body-Clock, is for a lack of, completely rogered. It's screwed, if you will. I've spent the last few months staying up late on creative spurs... "Oh, maybe I'll get a whole bunch of writing done!" HA! I've caught you out mister brain lie. This is an endless paradox of bad behaviour. But It doesnt change the fact...I'm still AWAKE. I can't seem to force my brain to shutdown for 8 hours or so.

Sleep...Sleep...I'm going to eventually tumble off into some sort of random slew of phrases. I'm not sure when, but the random beast will strike tonight some time.

There's a bland cup of coffee to his right. A small notepad accompanies it, it's companion pencil sitting idly between loose fingers. The writer clenches his fingers in frustration, the sharp snap of the pencil echoing through the silent room. The noiseless noise, is far too noisy for his liking. He jams some headphones into his tired and sore ears and blasts as much Rock 'n' Roll as possible to drown out the Writers Block.

Sighing, he resigns himself to sleep. Except...he cannot sleep. He brews a fresh cup of coffee and snatches another pencil off his fride door, where he keeps the spares. He sits down infront of the notepad and his hand goes limp...the coffee stale.

That was lovely and productive now wasn't it. I don't even have a cup of coffee here. Hmm *Muses* Perhaps I should make some...Ah...that wouldn't serve my attempt to sleep now would it.

On a sidenote, I haven't ever been to concert in my life. That's rather depressing. I love music. I've also been to festivals as well, but an authentic concert with a headlining band, nope.

Anyway, now that I've written useless garbage I'm gonna whammie off to the land of the lull. Goodnight all.

And the Game of the Week Is...

Okay so, another post. But a bright spark hit me as I wrote the previous post. I'll do a Game of the Week sort of review.

Tomorrow. I will/should, be in possession of Final Fantasy 13, a game I have been waiting for, for a long time. I thought that with my non-existant job, I'd never get a console to be able play the game.

Then I bought myself an XBOX 360. With the help of a friendly grandmother. Odd I know. Anyway, so I will hopefully be getting the game tomorrow and after I've had a decent whack at it. I'll give ya'll a review. Hopefully it'll be insightful. And help anyone decide whether or not to purchase the game.


And So It Begins....Again....

So I've tried blogging on and off before. On many different types of forums and the like but none have really kept my interest for too long. I'm so much like a hummingbird it's not funny.'s a little funny.

A short introduction I believe is in order. I am a wannabe Writer/Novelist. I've never really stuck through with my long-term projects. At most I've written around about 25 Chapters for one singular novel. I have about 50 Projects on the go at once which can be absolutely terrifying. It's a monolithic task but it's what I aim to achieve one day. To finish them all.

Eh...Fat Chance.

I'm 18... as of recently. And I live in a rather small-ish town. Rather average populace, in both personality and size. I guess I'm not very different. I love the town, but I can't wait to get out one day. I'm currently on my GAP year, and I've been accepted into Deakin University so next year I'm off to the city.

But anyway.

The purpose of my blogging is for several purposes. Priority #1: Is that I at least get some writing down, even if it isn't specifically linked to my novels and such. Priority #2: Is so I can just relax and get my thoughts out into some outlet. Priority #3: Well, I don't really have one.

The reason I write though, is because I love having a world to control because I lack so much of it in my own life. Creating characters is...the writers equivalent of giving birth. They are our creation that we can then control and live through when our lives become mundane. - Specifically fantasy stories.

I write every genre really. But something I've discovered recently is that I LOVE writing game scripts...Yeah. Nerd. I know.

Yet, I've always gamed, and that probably had a lot to do with it. I'll probably update this blog with a side-note about whatever game I'm playing also, along with small excerpts from whatever I'm working on currently.

So yeah, stay tuned...or...linked...or whatever it is that you do. The Writing Bear has risen again! *cough cough*